i’m so sad. who do i tell? i look to twitter.
noone will care. i look to my best friend but i don’t wanna be a downer on her
birthday.
i’m crying now. i wonder if he’s listening. if he’s
even there. i always wonder. tonight i ask out loud: ARE YOU THERE? WHY AM I
ALWAYS CRYING? WHY AM I ALWAYS SAD? no reply. of course? i expected this.
i go to the mirror. i do something i was scared
to do before now - look at myself in the mirror in the dark. my tears are
distracted. i watch myself for a few seconds before asking out loud again: IF
YOU’RE THERE, SHOW ME A SIGN. no response. again. i didn’t expect this. for
some reason i thought something would happen.
i walk back to my bed to feel the very tears
that slowed down whilst staring at my reflection pick up speed again.
